The life of a CHP wife, the beginning.

Hey friends and readers. I have been thinking long and hard about adding something to this blog that I feel will be beneficial to all women and men who are dating, engaged or married to a peace officer. This is going to be a whole new segment in my blog and I hope that I can give enough examples and provide as many tips and tricks for all of you along the way. This segment will include a what to expect during the hiring process, the academy, break in and what is now the “new normal” for you. Okay…first things first

How did this start for me? Well, really fast actually. My husband was in his early 20s when he decided he wanted a career in law enforcment. He had a few friends who were fellow officers that really took him under their wings and gave him the guidence and support he needed to begin the adventure. For some men and women the process can take as little as 6 months, for Kyle it took 3 years. There were many set backs but on March 1st 2015 on my way home from work i received a call from him reading me his acceptance letter and that he began academy life in 1 month! This was the most wonderful and terrifying experience in my life and the lives of our friends and family.

After his 27 weeks he graduated, we got married and we moved in a 10 day span. Exhausted was putting it mildly. While i was excited for this new adventure my whole support system was back home, a friend and fellow officers wife was also back home but i knew they were all a text or phone call away. I was excited and scared and i really tried to tackle this new life head on, on my own. I didnt have anyone around to help me so i learned alot of things the hard way and although it was tough i now have the tools and tips to share with anyone beginning this adventure. 

Stay tuned for my next post about the hiring process and academy life for all of us who are these heroes support system.


Growing up on the spectrum: Lessons Ive learned with Rachel

Hi everyone. Sunday is a special day in my family because my sister Rachel is turning 27!! Its funny how when you’re a kid the idea of you and your siblings aging never really crosses your mind. Its also funny how fast time goes by. I cant believe that she will be 27. I remember all her “big” birthdays, 16, 18, 21 and now I am sitting here writing this and thinking “she is in her late 20’s and in no time we will be having her 30th birthday”. I wanted to share with all of you some things that she has taught me in this life we have so here are some lessons from Rachel to Kelsey

  1. Empathy. Typically individuals on the spectrum do not feel empathy. My mama taught Rachel empathy from a very early age. I can remember if I was crying, Rachel would cry. At 6 years old I had no idea why she did that. It was because my mom gave her the cues that I was sad or hurt and how to act accordingly. To Rachel, that meant if sister cries, so do I. Writing this now makes me tear up.
  2. Memorization. As you all have read, or know. Movies were Rachel’s “zen” growing up. She and I could act and quote so many movies and still can to this day. I know that if she wasn’t around not only would I not be able to memorize like crazy but neither would our family. 🙂
  3. Fear. Never in my life have I felt such fear… I always worry. I always hope that she is ok and that nothing will harm her. I am always afraid that someone will make fun of her and she will know. Its a fear I would equate to that of a parent and a child.
  4. Hope. When my mama told me her diagnosis story and said that her doctors claimed “she will never walk, or talk or speak” I cannot imagine the feeling of hopelessness that could have caused. But then I look at Rachel, and I see all that she has overcome and does in her daily life and I cant feel anything but hope.
  5. Pride. I am one very proud big sister. There are days when I am so proud (like right now) and I just gush over her and I am sure people want to me shut up but my gosh, she is amazing!!!
  6. Work ethic. Rachel has only called in sick to work once and she tried to argue with my mama that she was okay to go to work. Mind you she had a fever and works in a retirement community so sickness can be life threatening. I called into work all the time! She goes to work with a smile on her face, on holidays, she works on Christmas and she is working on her birthday this sunday as well and she does it all with no complaints.
  7. Humor. Rachel is one of the funniest people I have ever met. She is the first one to say something outrageous and have me on the floor laughing. Sometimes she will look at me with this face she makes in the middle of family dinners and I will burst into fits of laughter.
  8. Fearlessness. Rachel believes that she can do ANYTHING!!! and while she does struggle she still tries and she will fight you until you have to tell her NO its not happening! Its amazing to see her strong will.
  9. Routine. Individuals with Autism thrive when on a routine. Rachel has had a routine since the moment my mom found out about her diagnosis. Because of this she has given me such a great example of how to keep myself (and get my puppy) on a routine, that I have a hard time straying from.
  10. Some days are harder than others. That’s the truth with life in general. When you have someone you love with a developmental disability there are days when you are just radiating pride and love and then there are days when she is frustrated and overstimulated and anxious thus making you frustrated, overstimulated and anxious. However, as I said before that is life, and I have learned that in those kind of events we talk about what’s wrong, we come up with a plan and then we move on and getting Rachel to deal with what’s wrong and then doing something that makes her happy is key.
  11. Patience. This is something you have to have when you have a sibling with special needs. This is something that my mom said I had my whole life with Rachel and honestly I cant ever remember have patience because I am a naturally impatient person. Its something that I continue to work on. When Rachel is upset (because she is very stubborn) its hard to reason with her without both of us either in tears or me having to be the big sister and stand my ground, even when her sweet face crumbles and her eyes well up with tears.
  12. Have fun. I think that society has such a stigma on people with disabilities. I am unsure as to why that is.. I always made sure that when a fun opportunity presented itself for Rachel that if I could go with her, or whatever that I would because she deserves to have the most fun and rich life imaginable. I was her date to multiple dances, including both of her proms. I was the first person to successfully take her to her first movie in the movie theater (which I sobbed during). I took her to get her first non-ear piercing (her nose) and my mama and I made her a deal that when she turns 30 I will be the one to take her to get matching sister tattoos!
  13. Milestones mean more. Milestones are huge for everyone, and I know that I may be bias but when Rachel hit her biggest milestones it was this wave of happiness, and assurance and pride that I don’t think everyone feels. When she first performed at her class Christmas show, I wrote about this previously but when I went to that show I expected a meltdown and for my mama, nana and I to have to take her home. When she held her little battery operated candle and sang We wish you a Merry Christmas and then yelled EVERYBODY, it took all that I had in me to not cry. That was the moment that I knew that she was blossoming and that she was going to grow up into the amazing woman she is now.
  14. Purpose. I’m not really good at any one thing. I am however good at understanding Rachel. I know when its been a bad day for her. I know when she wants to be included. I know her. If I never do anything with my life (minus what I am doing now) she will be my biggest accomplishment. While I am only her sister and I didn’t do a fraction of what my mama did, I am good at being her sister.
  15. Heartbreak. There are times when she has 100 percent broken my heart. I remember when I took her to get her nose pierced and the guy at the shop was explaining the release form to her I stepped in and said “Can I help her with this, she has Autism” and Rachel looked me square in the eyes, with a look on her face that I will never forget and said “I’m not Autistic anymore, that hurts my feelings” My heart broke and its breaks as I write this. I never want her to feel different.
  16. Acceptance. I have been extremely lucky that all of the people who I have brought around Rachel have been nothing but kind. It is hard to feel accepted by your peers when they have typically developing siblings but at a young age I stopped giving a shit and when Rachel and I were at the same school, I had her hang out with my friends and I. I also made it clear if they couldn’t hang with Rachel that we had no business being friends.
  17. Unconditional Love. Never in my life have I felt a love that I do for Rachel. Again I would compare it to a mother and child. There are days when I cannot believe how lucky I am that I get to be her sister. I get to have a different bond with my sister than many people do and I would not replace that for anything in the entire world.

These are just a few of the things she taught me. There are more everyday and I cannot wait to share more as they come.



Rachel with her pup nephew Kevin ❤


200 questions post 7

Something you were disappointed in/by?

This questions brings to mind alot of things but im not going to think about it Globally, im going to think about it locally. Everyone has hard times. Everyone complains and sometimes you wonder when its going to get worse. I had been one of those people. I was so angry and resentful. I was jealous and sad. I believed nobody knew how i felt and i was so negative that i began to lose sight of me. That is how so many others are… I am disappointed by society’s inabilty to deal with life and to take ownership for how they handle situations. I ,personally have had anxiety for most of my life. Its been so bad that i believed i was having a nervous breakdown and would need to be hospitalized (panic attacks at their peak right?!?) I have never let anxiety speak for me. I have dealt with the worst of times with strength and power. I have never made an excuse for something because of anxiety. I have worked through it and come out on top. Society today does not take accountability, everyone is saying “why me”. I too have asked that question but i gotta tell you something… Life doesnt give a shit!! It is up to all of us to make life good. Its okay to have a bad day because we all do, but dont sit around and feel sorry fir yourself because there is someone going through something so much worse. Wake up everyday feeling so grateful that you are alive. Practice positive thinking. Breathe deeply. Feel the warm sun on your face. We only get this one time to be alive so why not embrace your blessings and leave all the negative shit behind because honestly, the world continues on regardless of you bad day.

1 year Anniversary

Hi friends! I just hit my 1 year mark for this blog and this has been so much fun. I know that I don’t post as much as I used to but I am now busier than I was before. I have written so many posts that have made me so happy, posts that have been harder to write. It has all been a really organic experience and I have enjoyed every post I have written.

So whats next…

well.. I am sending out my transcripts to continue my education but I am also looking into a certification in personal training! As many of you know, I have been on a journey to get and maintain healthy habits and going to the gym has only added extra drive to get in even better shape and continue my journey. Thankfully I have a friend who is going to be helping me with this endeavor. This does not mean that I am not continuing school this is just another avenue while I continue my eduation. I am in contact with 2 schools regarding my Bachelors degree so I am waiting to hear back from one of them to help me decide where I choose to go.

I am taking care of my bulldog puppy. almost 9 months old and 80 pounds!!!! He is sassy and fully of energy and I love him

1488402700740.20170130_061130My husband is working hard to get up transferred closer to our hometown and now we play the waiting game for that…

My Etsy shop is doing better. I have had one sale, and 6 special orders! I can only hope that it gets bigger and busier. Here is some of my latest work!

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11 lessons in 11 years 

Hi readers. My husband and I are just over 2 months away from our 11 year anniversary. (not our wedding anniversary, we are coming up on 2 years for that in October). I wanted to share 11 lessons we have learned on our own and from each other. 1 lesson for each year. These may seem like common sense to some but i have been told that Kyle and I are “the example” of how a good couple works. (not to toot our own horns)…

1. Let the little shit go!! I can’t tell you how many arguments and fights we have gotten into over the years over things that today are so small and require zero energy. I think that’s something that you have to learn within the first couple of years being together. There were times where we would get into an argument or fight and after hours of just being pissed off and crying I would forget why we were fighting in the first place. Seriously… let that shit go!!

2. It’s okay if you don’t agree on the little things as long as you agree on the big things. Kyle and I are the ideal couple for Opposites attract. We literally have nothing in common as far as favorites, likes and dislikes etc… however when it comes to big decisions such as how we live our day-to-day life, how we want to raise our children, or what we wanted to do when we retire, we are on the same page 100%. I think that is most important.

3. Make each other laugh. Kyle and I laugh all the time. We’ve even had conversations about how we think it’s sad when couples don’t find each other funny or don’t laugh at each other. How can you have fun with your spouse if you don’t laugh? Kyle makes me laugh at least a handful of times a day. Even if it’s something small and I still laugh we’ve done our job.

4. Have conversations. I’ve heard many couples say that after certain point you lose things to talk about. Kyle and I after all this time can still find things to talk about even if it’s something like which actor we prefer as Batman we can have a good conversation as to why we think what we think. There is no reason to stop having conversations with your significant other.

5. It’s okay to be scared. When Kyle started the academy and we found out we were moving to a county that neither of us wanted to live in we knew that we only had each other to rely on. That in itself is terrifying. Because Kyle and I stayed home to go to school and for him to get into the academy we only lived with each other during Summers when I would house sit. Once Academy life started it was six months of wedding planning, testing, anxiety, tears, sleepless nights, days where we would do nothing but sleep all day because he was so exhausted and I knew that at the end of it we would be somewhere where it was just he and I all the time. That scared me because I’ve always had family so close by. Being scared is okay you just need to explain why you’re scared and try to understand how you as a couple can fix that fear

6. Make time for date night. Everyone talks about when you have children date nights are so few and far between. Even now with just a puppy Kyle and I have to plan time to go on dates. Date night doesn’t have to be getting dressed up and going to dinner. Date night for us could be a movie from Redbox, a pint of Ben & Jerry’s ice cream to share and our dog. As long as we’re together relaxing that’s what’s most important.

7. Try to understand each other’s frustrations. Because Kyle Works graveyard shift that’s 12 hours or more when he comes home I know that even though I want nothing more than to just hang out with him he has to sleep. The same goes for him when the dog is chewing something up he’s not supposed to and my computer crashes and it’s the first day of school and my car gets flat tire. (this has happened all in 1 day more than once) he is the first person to tell me to calm down that he understands how I feel and that we’re going to fix it one step at a time. It always gets fixed but as long as I understand how he feels and he understands how I feel then everything’s okay.

8. Do things the other person loves to do. Before Kyle and I moved he was very much involved in the MMA training and trainer life. I hated exercising and all I wanted to do was sit at home all day and read. But I decided because Kyle loved that part of his life so much that I would join a women’s cardio kickboxing class that I actually got pretty good at. In turn, Kyle would read books that I suggested to him as long as they weren’t romance novels 🙂

9. Be honest. Being honest is just a good quality to have in life but with your spouse it’s even more important. After we moved I was extremely unhappy. I just wanted to go home and be with my family and friends and there were many days where I would just sit and feel sorry for both he and I because he too didn’t like where he was although he had just gotten his dream job so working here was what we had to do. I lied for a few months and put on a brave face about everything being okay and that it was going to work out until one night I had a meltdown. I was crying I told him how much I hated our house and how much I hated it here and he just hugged me and said he was sorry. He asked if I wanted him to quit which I immediately said no because I would never want to take his dream job away from him. And although I still don’t like the area I have a roof over my head and I get to be with him every single day.

10. Be present. Becoming present has been a struggle for me my entire life. I’ve always been an anxious person and hard-wired for stress and I’ve always been that girl who was 10 steps ahead of everybody else but then because I was so far ahead I would lose track of myself and others and have to go all the way back to square one and start over. In the last few years I have found that maintaining presence is key. On days when I’m anxious or home sick I will look at our wedding pictures or I’ll sneak into our room while Kyle sleeping and just get a quick glance of him and I’ll start to feel better because this is everything that I’ve ever wanted for him and for myself. After I take in a few deep breaths I realize that I’m very blessed that I get to be married to my high-school sweetheart.

And finally

11. Say I love you. I tell Kyle I love him probably a hundred times a day. Now our situation is a little bit different and he has a dangerous job however I told him I love him a hundred times every day 4 years ago or 5 years ago or even 8 years ago. He’s my best friend and I want him to know how much I love him. It’s funny sometimes I’ll say I love you to him and he goes “what’s wrong” even if nothing’s wrong he just needs to know.

These lessons are ones that I’ve learned in the last 11 years with Kyle. Some of them have come extremely naturally and some of them took years to finally realize but Kyle and I are a force together. I definitely feel like when he and I walk in a room there’s a presence and I don’t want to sound cocky but I think that he and I have earned the right of the title power couple. We both work extremely hard at our marriage and I think that we do a really good job!!!

My Dream

Many of you know that i am going to school in the hopes of becoming a librarian. While this is a goal for me, my real dream is to work in publishing. I got the idea when I first saw the movie The Proposal. Watching Sandra Bullock and Ryan Reynolds sit in an office and read books that were either going to make it in the world or not was absolutely fascinating. I kind of feel like the idea of publishing and or working in the industry has followed me around for quite some time. Not only did I get my first idea from the movie The Proposal but the second time was when I read the 50 Shades of Grey series. Our Leading Lady Ana, in book 2 gets a job at a Publishing House in Seattle. When I watch movies or read books that have to do with the publishing industry it makes my heart feel whole. The idea of working in an office Reading manuscript giving feedback proofreading and editing is something that I hold near and dear to my heart. For a long time I thought I wanted to be on the other end and write a book and while I still might do that I really want to work in this industry I want to surround my life with books even more so than I already have. Are any of you in this industry? Do you have any tips?

The You’re Not Good Enough Book Tag

Hi friends! Yesterday my bestie Sharon hosted this tag on her Instagram and said I should do it. Now since I would rather write than talk I figured I would do a post on it! So lets get started!

  1. You only have one more spot on your spelling bee team, who would you pick to complete your team?

    Choices: Caspian- The Hollow or September –The Girl Who Circumnavigated Fairyland in a Ship of her Own Making. I would choose Miss September because she is a crafty skilled girl who outsmarted a Marques. I love Caspian but I need to go with smart and not sweet to win this spelling bee!!

  2. Both Characters want to kill you, which one would you kill first so that you have a better chance of surviving?

    Choices: Ryle- It Ends with Us or Hagrid- The Harry Potter Series. This was so easy. I would off Ryle. He is a jerk and I know Hagrid would never be that mean!!!

  3. You’re on the bachelorette and you’re down to these two characters, which one are you going to give your rose too?

    Choices: Hermione-The Harry Potter Series or Alice- Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland… Well, since they are both girls if I had to give one away I think I would chose Alice. She is such a badass, travelling down the rabbit hole, dealing with the Red Queen and still manages to make it home to tell the tale!

  4. You have been chose for the Hunger Games, who would most likely volunteer in your place?

    Choices: Ridge- Maybe Someday or Caspian- The Hollow. I am beyond excited for this!!! Both boys are very sweet but I have to say that I believe Caspian would be the first one to volunteer ❤

  5. You’re stranded on an island, which character would you sacrifice to engage in cannibalism?

    Choices: Tyson- The Percy Jackson Series or Lupin- The Harry Potter Series. I hate this question because I love both character. If I’m being honest I would get rid of Lupin, I have such a soft spot for Tyson. He reminds me so much of my little brother, Dylan (minus the cyclopes thing).

  6. You’re the next DC/Marvel superhero (with your own TV show) who is your sidekick?

    Choices: Harry Potter- The Harry Potter Series or September- The Girl Who Circumnavigated Fairyland in a Ship of her Own Making. I am a DC girl 100 percent and have been since I was a little one!!! If I had to choose, again I choose my girl September!

  7. You’re the manager of an Avocado Admiring company, who would you fire for lack of communication skills?

    Choices: Matilda- Matilda or James- James and the Giant Peach. Ok first of all what even is this company right?! Ha! I love it! If I had to choose who to get rid of it would be Matilda. I love James so much that I could never get rid of him!

  8. You have just finished a book in which your favorite character dies, which character is most likely to comfort you?

    Choices: Simon Lewis The Mortal Instruments or Draco Malfoy The Harry Potter Series. That is easy! SIMON!!!!!

  9. Ugh, its high school. Who would most likely be part of the popular clique?

    Choices: Elijah- How to Hang a Witch or Mad Eye Moody-The Harry Potter Series. This is a tough one because both characters are somewhat outcasts but I guess Elijah.

  10. The Day has arrived, you’re finally a year older! Who would have the nerve to forget your birthday?

    Choices: The Mad Hatter- Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland or Draco Malfoy-The Harry Potter Series. I think Hatter would because he’s… Mad!!!

  11. You’ve just found an upcoming booktube star. Who would it most likely be?

    Choices: Professor McGonagall-The Harry Potter Series or Atticus Finch-To Kill a Mockingbird. Both characters are so bright and eloquent but if I had to choose one I would like to watch it would be Atticus.

  12. Sleepover Time! Unfortunately you can only invite one person, who do you invite?

    Choices: Cadeon- Dark Desires After Dusk or Holly-Dark Desires After Dusk. OMG!!!!! Cadeon hands down!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  13. Bam! you’re pregnant. Who’s the father?

    Choices: Matilda- Matilda or Percy-The Percy Jackson series. Since Percy is the only guy, obviously I choose him (and I love him!!)

  14. You’ve just written a super important text. Who would see it but not respond?

    Choices: Carrow- Demon from the Dark or Tyson-The Percy Jackson Series. Probably Carrow, while I love and adore her she would be the first one to not respond!

  15. You just woke up and its time for breakfast. Your mom has been replaced by who?

    Choices: Jeb- The Splintered Series or Hermione- The Harry Potter Series. I don’t know that I would want an artist or a witch to replace my mamas cooking but Jeb I guess..


Well that wraps up this tag! If you have anymore you want me to do send me a comment!

50 questions tag *All about me

Hey readers! Hope all of you are well today. Its been quite the day for me, just busy busy busy!!! Anyway I wanted to do a light and fun post today so here it is, 50 questions tag I found mysparkpeople

  1. Were you named after anyone? Technically no, however my mama told me she was 11 years old the first time she heard the name Kelsey (one of her brothers friends) and she thought it was the coolest name ever.
  2. When was the last time you cried? Today out of pure frustration with my homework (math gets me down)
  3. Do you like your handwriting? yes! I pride myself on my penmanship.
  4. What is your favorite lunch meat? I know you will all be judging me but whatever…BOLOGNA!
  5. Do you have kids? Human children, no not yet. I do have a puppy who keeps me really busy
  6. If you were another person would you be friends with you? Probably not.
  7. Do you use sarcasm a lot? Not much, I tend to find it disrespectful unless the person you are being sarcastic to knows the inflection in which you speak.
  8. Do you still have your tonsils? Yes, however I would like to have them removed and just not worry about them!
  9. Would you bungee jump? DEAR GOD NO!
  10. What is your favorite cereal? Waffle Crisp 🙂
  11. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? Nope!
  12. Do you think you are strong? yes, probably one of the strongest people I know, next to my mama.
  13. What is your favorite ice cream? Ben and Jerrys Half Baked
  14. What is the first thing you notice about people? Their clothing style
  15. Red or Pink? Pink, because I hate red.
  16. What is your least favorite thing about yourself? My stress level/anxious mind.
  17. Who do you miss the most? My sister Rachel.
  18. What is the spark feature that has helped you the most? I have no idea what this even means right now?…
  19. What color shoes are you wearing? No shoes
  20. What was the last thing you ate? A grilled turkey sandwich on sourdough.
  21. What are you listening to right now? Rise of the guardians is playing in the background.
  22. If you were a crayon what color would you be? Probably black but maybe Lavender
  23. Favorite Smells? My mamas pumpkin bread, my mother in laws cheesecake, my stepmoms chocolate chip cookies.
  24. Who was the last person you  talked to on the phone? My mama!
  25. Mountain Hideaway or Beach house? Mountain hideaway because I hate the beach..(yes I said I hated the beach, I feel like you see one you see them all sand and water)
  26. Favorite sports to watch? If dance counts then dance otherwise football.
  27.  Hair color? I honestly have not known my natural color since I was 13 but I’m blonde right now.
  28. Eye color? Blue
  29. Do you wear contacts? No my eyes aren’t bad enough to wear glasses and or contacts that much.
  30. Favorite food? CHEESEBURGERS!!!
  31. Scary movies or happy endings? I love both but being so scared during a scary movie far surpasses happily ever after!
  32. Last Movie you watched? The Rise of the Guardians
  33. What color t-shirt are you wearing? Black
  34. Summer or Winter? I am a summer girl (it was always winter until I moved to a crummy area)
  35. Hus or kisses? I come a family that hugs and kisses every time we say hello and goodbye so both!
  36. Favorite dessert? Right now I am hooked on bread pudding.
  37. Strength training or cardio? Cardio
  38. Computer or television? T.V
  39. What book are you reading now? I was asked to read and review a novel by an indie author so I am reading Ashes to Ashes by Valerie Thomas.
  40. What is on your mousepad? I don’t have one.
  41. Any tattoos? Yes! I have 7 and planning on more!!
  42. Favorite sound? The garage door opening when my husband comes home from work.
  43. Rolling stones or Beatles? BEATLES
  44. What is the farthest you have been away from home? Boulder, Colorado. What a gorgeous city!
  45. Do you have a special talent? I am pretty good at impressions 🙂
  46. Where were you born? Walla Walla, Washington.
  47. Where are you living right now? Lakeport, CA :/
  48.  What color is your house? I think its tan.. maybe yellow(ish)
  49. What color is your car? Gunmetal Grey
  50. Any Pets? Yes! a sweet bulldog puppy named Kevin ❤

A-Z Bookish survey

Hi readers! Hope all of you are well! Yesterday I did a live feed via my Instagram. It was the A-Z bookish survey that I saw @haileyinbookland do on her youtube channel, so naturally I had to do my own. I wanted to share it typed up for all of you as well as I am missing blogging so much and looking for new content daily. So lets get into it

~How this works. Each letter of the alphabet corresponds with a question. Some will contain pictures and some will not. I would love to read more of these or answer any questions so please comment or by all means do your own!

A: Authors you read the most from? For me that is Cat Winters, J.K Rowling, Lemony Snicket, Cassandra Clare, Roald Dahl and the list literally keeps going…

B: Best sequel ever!harry-potter-seriesObviously I had to go with Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets plus all the other amazing books in the series!

C: Current Read:


Right now I am reading Blackest Nights by Geoff Johns. This was recommended to me by my best buddy Ray. He is a super hero junkie and that was one thing that we really bonded over and the other day I was mentioning I wanted to read more graphic novels and he suggested this. I am about 40 pages in and it is so amazing!

D: Drink of choice while reading? For me that’s coffee. That’s my drink of choice for anything that I am doing! It can hot, iced, blended, I don’t care.

E: e-reader or physical book: For me I love a physical book. Its a sensory thing for me. I love the feel of a book in my hands, I love the way they smell I love the sound of the pages turning. However… I love my kindle and I just ordered a new one with more space so that in itself is amazing!!

F: Fictional character I would have dated in high school?

SimonSIMON LEWIS!!! I love him so much!! I don’t know what it is, but he literally is perfect!

G: Glad you gave this book a chance!

imagesFQRSJFV3I was not interested in this series at all, but a lady that I used to work with convinced me to try it and oh my gosh, what a great read this was. I loved all aspects of this book. I found it so refreshing of a story, and something so different!

H:Hidden Book Gem:

ClearingI chose a different book for my live feed because I no longer have a copy of this but this book was so amazing. It is a love story that travels through time. Its so gorgeous and so hearbreaking and such a fast great read.

I: Important moment in your reading life? For me that was when I became a reader. I always watched my mama and nana read and I wanted to be able to just sit and read and book like them. It took me until I was 14 to find my love for reading but once I did it was hooked!

J: Just Finished.. This is a bittersweet topic. So… I just finished Caraval by Stephanie Garber and I was so disappointed with it. I gave it two stars out of 5… if you want to read my review check out my book blog

K: Kind of book you wont read: Sci Fi and Thriller.

L: Longest book read:

HP5.pngAt a whopping 766 pages!!

M: Major book hangover: ifhehadbeenwithme_120717This frickin book! It was suggested to me by my best friend, Sharon and I had no idea how amazing it was and how exhausted I would be upon finishing. It was so good and so sad!

N: Number of book cases. I have 1 full size shelf, and 2 smaller shelves.

O: One book you read multiple times.Harry_Potter_and_the_Prisoner_of_Azkaban_(US_cover)I have read this book probably a dozen times and my poor copy is so tattered and the spine is so broken 😦 But this is a book that every time I read it I find more and more I love about it.

P:Preferred place to read? For me that is my bed. I am such a busy person and so I literally have to pencil in time to read and it usually ends up being at bedtime, when I have the puppy asleep and a few quiet moments for myself.

Q: Quote that inspires you. I am a quotation queen and there are so many that I love but right now I am hooked on this … It’s really liberating to say no to shit you hate~ Hannah Horvath. This is quote I heard from the show Girls, and I am one who always feels like I have to please everyone and say yes just to keep everyone smiling but when I heard this I was like hell yes!

R: Reading Regret: My biggest regret is that I didn’t enjoy reading sooner. I feel like I lost so many years of reading because I hated it so much.

S: Series you started and need to finish: What series haven’t I started and need to finish?…

T: Three favorite books:

U: Unapologetic fangirl:


I love supernatural! My sister Jamie has been a die hard fan since day one and I thought it was actually pretty lame for a long time. One summer when I was housesitting I had finished all of my shows on Netflix and this was one that I hadn’t really tried and after the pilot I text Jamie and was like “oh my gosh how did I not like this show.”

V:Very excited for this release!


This is coming out the day before my wedding anniversary and OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!

W: Worst bookish habit. I am notorious for not giving a book long enough to get good. If I am not hooked within at least the first 5 chapters then I will put it away and I wont try again.

X: x marks the spot, pick the 27th book on your shelf

BS.pngLucky number 27!

Y: Your latest Purchase: I don’t have a picture of what I currently bought but I got the Illustrated edition of Alice in Wonderland with the drawings done by Camille Rose Garcia 🙂

Z: and Z I don’t like the theme of the question so that wraps this survey up!

I hope all of you enjoyed this and check back for more book tag fun!

Edge of Seventeen: A movie review

Hey friends! I just watched Edge of Seventeen and wanted to do a review on it! This will be a less than formal review as it fits the theme of the movie.

Nadine is a typical Seventeen year old girl. She feels alone. Shes hormonal and all she wants is to feel loved and not alone. At 13 Nadine and her twin brother Darrian along with their mother are struck by tragedy when their father/husband dies suddenly. After that it seems Nadine, naturally becomes closed off and pessimistic about the world.

At 17 she is in love with a guy who has no idea who she is, her mother favors Darrian, her best friend begins a romantic relationship with Darrian, there is a guy who likes her, Erwin, she isnt interested and now her only friend is her History teacher… Things seem to begin to spiril for our heroine as a salacious text can get her into trouble.

I absolutely loved this movie. It was so honest and heartbreaking while being funny and quirky. Hailee Steinfeld plays Nadine and she made me remember what it was like to be 17 and think i was the only person in the world with problems and to have that empty ache in my heart of feeling like i was always alone. I really connected with Nadine emotionally. She made me laugh and cry and feel nostalgic about the shittiest age in my life!!

i highly recommend this movie. It will make you laugh and cry. It pulls at your heart, it makes you nostalgic and its just so good. 

🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟 a five star film!!!